The hump I got over

So last week I was in this "hump" in my life that was making me feel like I was in the dumps. When Tuesday came around I started to slowly come out of that hump. I got out the motorcycle, and rode it for the first time since last fall. It felt so good to get out, I needed it so bad. This whole not having a job really drives me crazy. As of last week I have applied for 43 jobs. Only 3 of them have contacted me back and have received interviews. Then Tuesday night Evan and Kevan came out and stayed with us till Sunday. Wednesday Evan, Kevan, and I went snowboarding. I have been before but it has been a lonnnnng time since the last time I went, and they have never done it before. So the 3 of us decided that we would take a lesson. We found on Brighton's website that they had you can get a lesson, helmet, and day pass for only $80...which is a great deal considering the helmet was a super nice helmet. But I already had one that I had purchased over the holidays. So we did that, and we had a great first day. I love my new snowboard. It is so nice!!! Thank you again Mike for giving me a snowboard, bindings, and new gear for Christmas. It was all so good, and worked out great! Then since we had so much fun on Wednesday, we all decided to go boarding on Friday. Although this time Mike was able to go with us cause he had the day off. So the four of us went up to the mountain. I had so much fun. I am still not as good as I want to be but I was so much better than I was. :) We all had a great time.


It turned out to be such a great rest of the week.

So I am finding it to be sad...

That I have lost some great friends over my divorce, and that is to be expected. But what is not to be expected it when they are your really good friends (well at least I thought they were) and they decided to take one side and not both sides. I have lost some really great friends because they are one sided of the divorce, and it really bugs me cause they haven't even bothered to call me or contact me to get my side of the story, nor did they call to say I am so sorry to hear what you have went through. They just have decided that they would up and leave me as a friend and not even try to say...."I am sorry about the divorce. Why don't you tell me in your eyes what happened?" Then at least once they heard my story and decided to leave me as friend then I would respect that...it would still suck...but at least they know both sides of the story. I bring this up now cause I have just found out another friend that I thought was going to be two sided to the whole thing is really one sided. How do I know....Facebook. I really should be sending Facebook a Thank You card for helping me see through the lies. I found a couple of my friends today that I thought were great friends have de-friended me...which tells me one thing...they don't care about me anymore and they are feeding me lies when we hang out as friends. I am sad to see them do this to me...they are good people and fun to hang out with...but now I know that my walls are up when I am around and the minute I walk away from them, they will turn around and stab me in the back. Sad but true. I guess this was really just a vent message for me. Thanks for putting up with it.

For now...I am going to get into my motorcycle gear and go for a ride..I need to get the hell out. Clear my head. It will make me realize what and who I am thankful for, and that is what I need right now. Serenity now!!! haha