Questions

Why does my mother feel like she has to question everything you do or say? Not just simple questions but questions you know she is asking that she knows will bug you? Is it in our mother's nature to ask these questions just to see how far they can go? And what about the guilt trips?? I swear nobody is better at guilt trips than a mother. Lucky for me my mom has got a lot better over the years, either that or I just know what she is trying to do and I just don't let it get to me anymore. I really hope if and when I have kids, that I am not like my mother in that way. I know I am a lot like her in certain ways, but I know I do NOT want to guilt trip my kids into anything. I want my kids to make their own choices and learn from their own mistakes.
Anybody have the same feeling?

The hump I got over

So last week I was in this "hump" in my life that was making me feel like I was in the dumps. When Tuesday came around I started to slowly come out of that hump. I got out the motorcycle, and rode it for the first time since last fall. It felt so good to get out, I needed it so bad. This whole not having a job really drives me crazy. As of last week I have applied for 43 jobs. Only 3 of them have contacted me back and have received interviews. Then Tuesday night Evan and Kevan came out and stayed with us till Sunday. Wednesday Evan, Kevan, and I went snowboarding. I have been before but it has been a lonnnnng time since the last time I went, and they have never done it before. So the 3 of us decided that we would take a lesson. We found on Brighton's website that they had you can get a lesson, helmet, and day pass for only $80...which is a great deal considering the helmet was a super nice helmet. But I already had one that I had purchased over the holidays. So we did that, and we had a great first day. I love my new snowboard. It is so nice!!! Thank you again Mike for giving me a snowboard, bindings, and new gear for Christmas. It was all so good, and worked out great! Then since we had so much fun on Wednesday, we all decided to go boarding on Friday. Although this time Mike was able to go with us cause he had the day off. So the four of us went up to the mountain. I had so much fun. I am still not as good as I want to be but I was so much better than I was. :) We all had a great time.


It turned out to be such a great rest of the week.

So I am finding it to be sad...

That I have lost some great friends over my divorce, and that is to be expected. But what is not to be expected it when they are your really good friends (well at least I thought they were) and they decided to take one side and not both sides. I have lost some really great friends because they are one sided of the divorce, and it really bugs me cause they haven't even bothered to call me or contact me to get my side of the story, nor did they call to say I am so sorry to hear what you have went through. They just have decided that they would up and leave me as a friend and not even try to say...."I am sorry about the divorce. Why don't you tell me in your eyes what happened?" Then at least once they heard my story and decided to leave me as friend then I would respect that...it would still suck...but at least they know both sides of the story. I bring this up now cause I have just found out another friend that I thought was going to be two sided to the whole thing is really one sided. How do I know....Facebook. I really should be sending Facebook a Thank You card for helping me see through the lies. I found a couple of my friends today that I thought were great friends have de-friended me...which tells me one thing...they don't care about me anymore and they are feeding me lies when we hang out as friends. I am sad to see them do this to me...they are good people and fun to hang out with...but now I know that my walls are up when I am around and the minute I walk away from them, they will turn around and stab me in the back. Sad but true. I guess this was really just a vent message for me. Thanks for putting up with it.

For now...I am going to get into my motorcycle gear and go for a ride..I need to get the hell out. Clear my head. It will make me realize what and who I am thankful for, and that is what I need right now. Serenity now!!! haha

Here is a hint for all of you men....

So you guys always claim that you don't know what a woman wants well I am going to give you some more information that will help you get closer to that step.

#1 If a girl texts you...no matter what you should always text her back!!! NO MATTER WHAT!!! A girl will sit there wondering what she has done wrong to not deserve a text back...especially if she texts you "I love you" you should ALWAYS text her back with something. If not, you are loosing points and failing.

#2 If a girl gets a hair cut, done, or something to her hair you MUST tell her that it looks good. Or at least say something to the fact that she got it done. If you don't, you are really loosing this game. Most the time a girl gets her hair done for you!!! For the one she cares about and loves. She really wants you to make a great impression.

#3 Hugs. Make sure you always give a girl a hug when you see her...a kiss doesn't hurt either. Anytime she enters the room, or anytime she about to leave...you ALWAYS be the one to give her the hug and kiss good-bye. That will score you some major points!!!

Lucky for me I have a great guy that is pretty good and keeping his points high and not low. :)

So now ladies....what am I missing?? What is some really important things to you that you can think of that you know your man...or men in general could work on better?

I just thought that I would post this for any men who do read this...not sure there is any but oh well. :)

March 1st

So I know that 95% of my blog is about motorcycles...mainly me riding mine...well this post is no different. The main reason that I blog about riding motorcycles is cause that is the one thing that is my escape...my serenity. So as of March 1st, my new health insurance kicks in and I will be on my motorcycle! I decided the only thing that is going to stop me on that day is the weather....oh and if I have a job by then. So as long as it is above 40 degrees, no snow, I will be on my motorcycle. It is crazy but that is what I used to think about mountain biking. ha ha I guess I still do love mountain biking as much as I used too, it is just hard sport to do by yourself. I don't like to ride mountain bikes by myself ever since my HUGE accident years and years ago.

Have you noticed that they daytime is getting longer now...which means it is getting closer to spring?!?!?! Wahooo!!!!!

A BIG Thank you!!

The last couple of weeks have been really hard for me cause I lost my job, and I am what people call...broke. I know it gets boring to hear about Mike (cause I talk about him so much), but I have to say how much I have appreciated everything he has done and is about to do for me. Words can not express my deep appreciation for that man. So the question for you guys is....How do you say thanks for everything that he has done for me? How do you show your appreciation for helping me out with everything? I feel like nothing I do or say is going to be good enough. But if you guys have any ideas of what I can do to show my appreciation???? Oh and did I mention that I am jobless so I need to do it cheap? Well that is the case. I also don't know if I should do something for Valentine's day or wait till after the crazy holiday??? I kind of want to do it after the holiday because then it tells him that I appreciate him more. If I do it for the holiday then it might not mean as much to him. I really just want him to see how much I appreciate him. Help me people? I am not asking, I am telling you to help me? hahaha

Who would ever think you would get pressure from a website????

Do you feel like because you have a Facebook page you always have to be on it? And then you always think to yourself...."what would be a great status update?" and then you can never come up with one. Then sometimes when you come up with one, you come up with another, but you don't want to update your status again because it wasn't 30 mins ago when you just posted your last one.

I think it is so funny how a website has consumed so many lives including my own sometimes. 10 years ago, we would have never thought that this would be our future...Facebook. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it. It just feels like sometimes their is a lot of pressure just to keep up with everyone on there. Does anyone agree with me on this?? Or am I just crazy??